Max and Kai stemmed from my insane need to use my brain again after becoming a mum to my firstborn child “Maximus”. I began writing just 12 weeks after he was born and quickly took an 8-week hiatus almost straight away because he was quite poorly with recurring urine infections which ended in hospital stays each time.
To say this was a difficult start to the introduction of motherhood would be an understatement.
I had never really had an interest in blogging previously and I certainly didn’t follow any other mummy bloggers before joining the club myself. ]
At the beginning I loved to blog, just to freely write as much crap about Max as I could muster. Back then I wasn’t in any “Facebook Groups” and had no clue about things like going self-hosted. I was in my own little blogging bubble and looking back I can hand on heart say I loved it.
Not once did I ever feel judged or stressed about the small number of people reading my posts. If just one person viewed a page it made me happy, I just wanted other to enjoy my drivel. All of my traffic came from the WordPress reader, I didn’t actively promote the blog anywhere else. I didn’t know that you could.
If just one person viewed a page it made me happy, I just wanted others to enjoy my drivel. All of my traffic came from the WordPress reader, I didn’t actively promote the blog anywhere else. I didn’t know that you could.
Some or most bloggers cringe at their early posts. Maybe they weren’t written for an audience, seo’d to the hilt or God forbid contained spelling or grammar errors. After all what kind of “writer” would publish a post that “may” contain a grammatical faux pas (never mind that half of us are probably writing with a sleep deprived brain).
I’m the opposite, I’m not ashamed of my previous posts. When they pop up on time hop or if I’m having a look back they just make me feel sad. The reason being that I was much happier back then just writing for the fun of it. Not for page views or to look attractive to brands.
Some of the posts are short some are probably un-relevant but to me, they are home. To me, they showcase a different blogger. They feel like Kris the blogger who doesn’t give a hoot about what others think or where she’s ranking in this or that.
She’s a girl who doesn’t feel the need to engage in pods and like for like threads to up the views and social media stats. She doesn’t feel the need to keep up with the Jones and get bogged down with the constant crap that occasionally comes with blogging.
I kind of miss her and her blog.
That’s why I’ve come to a bit of a decision, it’s time for a break, to press the refresh button. It’s all become a bit too much lately, and I don’t just mean the writing. That’s the easy part. Constantly trying to be part of this “blogging community” has weighed me down, certain situations have frankly left me feeling a little broken.
Sometimes we need to ask the question ” Is it even worth it”?
This is something I need to take the time to figure out. So really this is a ciao for now maybe we will see you on the other side.
*I will still be attending Blog On in September for all you that are attending, I made the commitment to myself and my sponsor (I’m not one to let people down). I’m steering clear of Facebook but you can still find us on Twitter and Instagram.